This is another argument for collaboration...Once it was handed over to to my partner, this piece completely went a different direction from what I had in mind. At one point I was so frustrated with my total lack of control as I watched things smudge and smear their way away from any vision I had, I literally wanted to smash it...
Now that the finished work is sitting in front of me, I see the smudging as a vehicle to pull in the eye and communicate the vagueness of a feeling, a dream, an idea. The unspecific can be a much more potent tool than a simply rendered telling.
It let's the viewer find and read their own stories in the surface and wonder.